Tomorrow is a day of THANKS. A day to say thank you and appreciate all of our blessings. This wont be my first Thanksgiving without my 2 estranged sons, about 8 years ago they both chose not to come home and spend the day with me and their younger brothers. I admit after seeing my oldest hang onto his life by a thread, and how he proclaimed that it was his awakening and he would never take his family for granted again, I never could have imagined that he would walk away from us again. Yet here we are, a worse situation this time around….how quickly they forget. 😥
This year will be different for all of us. The rules have changed. This year, the Holidays for me, I hope will bring closure. It means the end of my begging those whom I need not beg. The end of my trying to please those I need not please. The end of my need to explain to those whom I need not explain. The end of my needing to feel accepted by those who don’t deserve to be accepted by me. It no longer makes a difference to me if it’s a neighbor, a co-worker, an acquaintance, a friend or a relative. If no pleasing acceptance is given to me, I realize that I do not require it.
So what am I to be thankful for this year? I must say, after the past year of indescribable nonsense, I am thankful that 2019 is coming to an end. I am also thankful of course for my amazing husband and my 2 loving and loyal sons. I am thankful for my brother being in my life, my dependable sister and our conversations, my mother and father, my exmotherinlaw who’s more of a friend than an ex anything. I am thankful for my job that I love, our puppy sitter, and our puppies with their priceless welcome homes. I am thankful for my friends both near and far, for my supportive healthcare team and (don’t laugh) yes, I’m ever so thankful for my new soaktub. 😁
I am thankful for beautiful days, moonlit nights, and my 4 wheel drive. I am thankful for my hubbys rootbeer, my WET brush, and my Philips Sonicare. I am thankful for music, comfy clothes, black boots, motorcycles, gel deodorant, Hulu Live, Charlies Angel’s, my bifocals and the sun in the sky. I am thankful for toilet paper, our king size bed, both my sons being responsible and my one sons girlfriend. There is so much to be thankful for, even when you’re down. Say thank you to the ones that love you, dismiss the ones taking so much from you. Keep your head above water, your life jacket on, put your needs first and you shall not drown.
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone