I Had A Bad Day

Today was a tough day. This is my vent today, I just need to complain for a quick minute. Nothing depresses me more then realizing all of the weight that I have gained from my autoimmune and depression med mixture since I’ve been in this depression slump. Weight is something I have fought with my entire life. In my 30s I worked very hard and lost 180 lbs all on my own, no surgeries and no gimmicks. I kept it off for many years. My autoimmune meds came with some weight gain, and now this depression and its meds are just horrible and I am getting bigger by the minute. Today several people come into our office that have had gastric bypass recently and as I’m very happy for them and excited for them, I just can’t help but be super jealous of them. And then, of course depression looked at me just right straight in the eyes and said “wow lady, everyone’s getting skinny but you.” And then back into the hole of sadness. I question, why did this have to happen to me? Why did I have to get depressed? Why couldn’t I deal with this all on my own? Why do I have to take meds that cause me to gain weight? Why me? Why me? I just want to be skinny again. My words of wisdom for the day are, depression sucks, autoimmune sucks, and getting fat sucks

And then back into the hole of sadness. I question, why did this have to happen to me? Why did I have to get depressed? Why couldn’t I deal with this all on my own? Why do I have to take meds that cause me to gain weight? Why me? Why me? I just want to be skinny again. My words of wisdom for the day are, depression sucks, autoimmune sucks, and getting fat sucks even worse. 😪

Published by Dazedmother

I'm a middle aged working woman. I have raised four boys of which my baby is 17. Motherhood began at age 17 for me. For 30 years every choice I've made was as a mother. This past year, two of my sons have decided life is better without me. I'm a mom, a grandma, a wife that was divorced and now remarried. Here I am, still trying to figure out this thing called life.

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