Confronting the Bully

When you start to find your true self, when you start to release and let go of the shit. This is when the inner healing will begin. I have remembered, acknowledged, admitted, and shared my demons. Many of them anyways. As I confront each one at a time, I find myself having even more courageContinue reading “Confronting the Bully”

A Shock & Awe Kind of Week

I’m not sure how to go about this post, other than to simply share it in its entirety and discuss after. So grab a cup of coffee or tea, sit down and get comfortable. My week started with our oldest dog crossing the rainbow bridge. No matter how many dogs you have, no matter howContinue reading “A Shock & Awe Kind of Week”

Bad For Real or Bad For Me

I go to my psychology appointment today and burst into tears. I tell her all of the shit that’s been going on in my life the past two weeks and ask her if it’s because of medication? Is it because of my new diagnosis? “I feel like it’s all just too much.” And she tellsContinue reading “Bad For Real or Bad For Me”

I Know I Did All I Could

Hi son, how are things? It’s been a long time since we’ve spoken, in fact soon it will be a year. Sometimes I think I should contact you, but then I remember you telling the world I’m a crazy bitch, and you telling your little brother you would beat his ass…and I realize you’re notContinue reading “I Know I Did All I Could”

Happy New Year Grandson

Good morning Bubba. How did you sleep? Have you decided what you will play today? Did you stay up late on New Years Eve? Did you have a party? Treats? I miss you so much Bubba. I can’t believe that soon it will be a year since your parents have let us see each other.Continue reading “Happy New Year Grandson”

Who’s Job Is It Anyway?

When there is a family feud, or family estrangement of any kind, who should make the first move? Not all that long ago my husband was at odds with his parents which sadly was all because of misunderstandings due to lack of communication.(thankfully all put behind them) At Christmas time I would tell him heContinue reading “Who’s Job Is It Anyway?”

Family? Are you sure?

Dealing with family issues is very  exhausting. Some days are better than others.  Some days I am angry and wish the people that have hurt me would fall off the face of the earth. Some days I simply forget about it and them by keeping myself overly busy and ignoring mankind.   And some daysContinue reading “Family? Are you sure?”

Don’t delay

If you’ve put your pride ahead of all else, it’s time to suck it up and realize there are bigger more important things to worry about than your pride. Don’t lose your chance to fix it, once they are gone, you’ve lost your chance to say I am sorry and you’ve lost the chance toContinue reading “Don’t delay”

Good Days and Bad Days-

I need to find PEACE. I have been so bitter lately, and it’s exhausting.  The closer it gets to Christmas, the sadder and more bitter I am. My heart aches each and every day. Half of me thinks about reaching out to them, and the other half knows that if I do I am onlyContinue reading “Good Days and Bad Days-“