To Be Clear

I use my blog as my outlet. Yes I know it is in writing and yes I know it’s here to stay. It’s like a tattoo. I get tattoos representing my life and or feelings that day. I wouldn’t erase a tattoo when that part of my life is over, because it is a reminderContinue reading “To Be Clear”

Day 2

Not spending much time here. Just checking in to say it’s been a wonderful day of firsts for us both. We even found a store and 3 restaurants that can serve gluten free, dairy free, egg free, peanut free and grain free. YAY! I can eat! I enjoyed today like there’s no tomorrow, because youContinue reading “Day 2”

Day 1

Day 1 of vacation. We started our journey 12 hours ahead of schedule. We traveled just under 1300 miles with 2 hours of sleep at a rest stop in just under 21 hours. We have another 4 1/2 hours to go. The goal is to get there before noon. That is 3 more states myContinue reading “Day 1”

AMAZING! STRONG! EMPOWERED! IT’S FINALLY HAPPENING!!!

That feeling you get leaving your psychology appointment after the doctor says you’ve made tremendous progress and she is not only impressed but proud….and in less than 24 hours you leave for a white sandy beach to spend a quiet week with the love of your life. This moment……PRICELESS ❤

Confronting the Bully

When you start to find your true self, when you start to release and let go of the shit. This is when the inner healing will begin. I have remembered, acknowledged, admitted, and shared my demons. Many of them anyways. As I confront each one at a time, I find myself having even more courageContinue reading “Confronting the Bully”

Here I Sit

Here I sit waiting for my monthly autoimmune blood draw, thinking about the upcoming vacation. My husband’s parents are not far from there, and he has invited them to join us for an afternoon. OMG. They are going to be shocked when they see me 80 bigger then when they saw me last. OMG. WhatContinue reading “Here I Sit”

I Had A Bad Day

Today was a tough day. This is my vent today, I just need to complain for a quick minute. Nothing depresses me more then realizing all of the weight that I have gained from my autoimmune and depression med mixture since I’ve been in this depression slump. Weight is something I have fought with myContinue reading “I Had A Bad Day”

It’s Hard To Have Fun

My husband is taking me on a vacation! EEEEK!! and OMG I’M SCARED!! Hear me when I tell you that I AM excited. He is taking me somewhere I’ve never been before. He has taken me on long distance trips in the 9 years we’ve been together, but they were quick trips to see myContinue reading “It’s Hard To Have Fun”

Bad For Real or Bad For Me

I go to my psychology appointment today and burst into tears. I tell her all of the shit that’s been going on in my life the past two weeks and ask her if it’s because of medication? Is it because of my new diagnosis? “I feel like it’s all just too much.” And she tellsContinue reading “Bad For Real or Bad For Me”