I Want You to Know I Love You

My dear son. I have been so lost in my depression that I haven’t taken the time to tell you how proud I am of you. You are so responsible, determined, smart, hard working, honest, loyal and with a beautiful heart. I know life hasn’t been easy. Our family being riddled with addiction, alcoholism, selfishness,Continue reading “I Want You to Know I Love You”

The Mental Monster

People that knowingly suffer from mental illness often ask themselves the question “why me?”.   I think everyone deals with some sort of “personality defect” to some extent.  I suppose it’s simply a part of humanity.  Mental illness however can be a serious complication to ones life, and big or small, the ripple effect can carryContinue reading “The Mental Monster”

I Know I Did All I Could

Hi son, how are things? It’s been a long time since we’ve spoken, in fact soon it will be a year. Sometimes I think I should contact you, but then I remember you telling the world I’m a crazy bitch, and you telling your little brother you would beat his ass…and I realize you’re notContinue reading “I Know I Did All I Could”

What Family Means To Me

Christmas is in two days.  I’ve heard sad stories about holidays for broken families but never thought it would be mine.  When I say broken, I’m not talking about divorced or separated parents I’m referring to A BROKEN FAMILY.  Broken as in a member or members have disconnected from the family and there are brokenContinue reading “What Family Means To Me”

Family? Are you sure?

Dealing with family issues is very  exhausting. Some days are better than others.  Some days I am angry and wish the people that have hurt me would fall off the face of the earth. Some days I simply forget about it and them by keeping myself overly busy and ignoring mankind.   And some daysContinue reading “Family? Are you sure?”

Good Days and Bad Days-

I need to find PEACE. I have been so bitter lately, and it’s exhausting.  The closer it gets to Christmas, the sadder and more bitter I am. My heart aches each and every day. Half of me thinks about reaching out to them, and the other half knows that if I do I am onlyContinue reading “Good Days and Bad Days-“

One Day You’ll Find Out the Truth

Hello Bubba. How are you today? Have you been having a good week? How is daycare going? Are you making new friends? What is your best friends name? What do you like to do at daycare? Do you have a new favorite toy? I was at the Harley store the other day. They have anContinue reading “One Day You’ll Find Out the Truth”

Good Morning Son

I’m writing to tell you I will never forgive you for taking my Grandschildren away from me.  I have put up with your chronic lying, your never ending manipulating, your obvious exaggerating, your passing the buck, and your running away for 20 plus years, this is the last time.  You have put our family throughContinue reading “Good Morning Son”

Excuses

It’s extremely frustrating to me when I go online to do a general search for toxic relationships between adult children and their parents.  The majority of the articles I see are written by parents giving estranged parents the advice to take the blame and apologize. WTF are you kidding me???? It pisses me off!!!!!!  Continue reading “Excuses”