The Opportunity to Live what I Learn

I have learned I can love from a distance. Tomorrow it will officially be 1 year since I’ve seen or heard my sons voice. He’s not dead, he’s not in a coma, he’s not in another part of the world. He’s right here in the same city living 3.3 miles away from me, but heContinue reading “The Opportunity to Live what I Learn”

Expectations Met as Important as Boundaries

I have learned so much about myself in the past year and I continue to learn each and every day. I have allowed people to push me around for so long, perhaps for always. However, when I got pushed too far into a situation that I could no longer handle, I would lose it andContinue reading “Expectations Met as Important as Boundaries”

When Is the Time Right

When does the responsibility as mom go from the main support role to the supportive role? 18? 20? 25? I mean, I dont feel like a mom should just disappear when a kid turns 18. Because my 29 and 28 year olds banished me from their lives a year ago, after I gave more money,Continue reading “When Is the Time Right”

That Ugly Four Letter Word

I am not a first. I am not his first. Hell I’m not even in his first ten or twenty but I am his last, or at least that’s the plan ie my hope. A sensitive subject for many people, especially sensitive for low self-worth people, is their spouse or significant others past. Let meContinue reading “That Ugly Four Letter Word”

Another Beach Lesson

Today is a new day. Are you going to the beach, or are you bringing it with you? When I say “Going to the Beach”, if I’m not lucky enough to actually be on the sugarsand, I’m taking time to myself, concentrating on me, closing my eyes and envisioning myself on the 5th floor balconyContinue reading “Another Beach Lesson”

It’s My Story & I’m Sticking To It

More often than not, we learn our role during our childhood. As such, as adults we continue to play that role which consequently teaches the people in our adult lives the role we play. Follow me: Growing up you are consistantly called a trouble maker due to various situations you find yourself in. Maybe yourContinue reading “It’s My Story & I’m Sticking To It”

Go Back to the Beach if You Must

I’m going back to the beach today. Not only because I want to, but because I must. I need to see the water, I need to feel the sand under my feet. I need to hear the waves crashing into the pier and I need to listen to the surfers speaking of their love ofContinue reading “Go Back to the Beach if You Must”